Stinie is tired of being fat!

Hi everyone :sign0144:

I'm considering having weight loss surgery and I wanted to do a bit of googling about the gastric band in particular (my other half makes fun of me because I'm always googling things lol)



I came across this site and I've been having a read through some of the posts etc and I have learned a lot already - it's good to get a more personal perspective of the whole thing instead of just the bare facts about the surgery itself.



Anyway, I have been overweight since I was a teenager so I don't really remember what it feels like to be "normal" weight. Perhaps that's why I've let myself get to this stage? Im 30 years old and I weigh about 23 stone :cry:

I have been on countless diets throughout my adult life - all of which resulted in a weight loss soon to be followed by an even bigger weight gain.



I am tired of:



- having to pay a fortune in the "fatty department" of shops and only being able to find tent-like tops and elasticated waist trousers.



- not being able to fit into amusement rides



- worrying about whether the chair I'm sat on is gonna collapse under me



- people staring at me when I eat, as if to say "look at the fatty stuffing her face"



- the self loathing guilty feeling you get after eating forbidden food



- wondering if I use more petrol than other people because I weigh the car down :rolleyes:



- not being able to walk and talk at the same time without getting out of breath and sweating like a pig



- feeling unsexy



- asking for an extension belt on airplanes



- not being able to wear high heels



- worrying about whether I'll end up with diabetes, heart problems or other obesity related health problems



- and a million other things



I feel like my weight is putting a limit on how much I can enjoy life - I know I only have myself to blame but it is soooo hard to get on the right track.



The thing that has made it even worse is that my man and I would really like to have a baby. I have PCO (I think!?) It was diagnosed in my early 20's but I am being tested again now as my current doc said that the previous tests weren't conclusive?! I am not really sure now if I have it or not - either way I haven't had a period in years which obviously means I can't conceive. I know it could just be due to my weight so I'll wait and see what the doc says. She has referred me to the weight management team and mentioned a gastric band as one of my options.



I am not even sure if I am even eligible for a band. I have thought about having one before but never really knew much about it. After my doc mentioned it to me about a month ago I have been thinking about it all the time - been online to read about it etc and trying to imagine what my life would be like if I had the band. My man is very supportive but I'm pretty sure he's fed up with me rambling on about it all the time :p



Anyway... Enough about me for now :D



I am finding all your posts on this site very inspirational and helpful :flowers:



Good luck to everyone on here :party0011:



Stinie xx

Stinie is tired of being fat!